Me: So you know how I'm really awkward?
Christina: Yes. I have experienced that a couple of times before.
Me: Ok, well in my dream I was with super handsome, guy of my dreams (pun intended), someone I apparently invented in my head and we were having one of those profound moments you only see in corny chick flicks where we are talking about something other than the electrical charge between us...and then he says, I'm going to be bold. I felt it coming, but he moved his arm towards me and I became confused and thought he was just putting his arm around me so I moved my head away trying to facilitate this, but really he was moving to move a piece of hair off of my face and kiss me [very romantic] while I awkwardly leaned away from him until I realized what was happening. My brain knows me too well. Even in my wildest dreams I'm awkward!!!
Christina: What a weird dream to have.
Me: Right!?
Christina: U should google it to see what it means
Me: It means that I'm awkward and lonely! lol
[This was actually spread out over several texts.] Right when our lips met and we kissed (awkwardly) I woke up. Time to go to my grandpa's. The entire drive there I was stifling my disbelief yet understanding laughter.
This hysterical dream, made me want to blog again. One of the reasons I stopped was because I felt I had nothing interesting to say. My life was pretty mundane and structured. Now, I don't really care if people are interested in what I have to say or if they think it's not interesting. I want to say it.
To catch up, since it has been so long, I am still lovin' livin'; however, not in Maryland. So much has happened and changed in my life since I last blogged. First of all, I finished all my classes at Towson, but I failed physics :( so, I still have one more class before I can graduate. I am going to be one of those perpetual students, I swear. Anyway, over the summer I worked at Coach, and then quit because my boss was horrible to me and started working full time at Burberry.
In the two months that I worked at Burberry so much changed. My grandpa was going to through radiation treatment because he had lymphoma and he would be starting a very intense form of chemotherapy on November 14. Then, as if that weren't enough for my parents to have to deal with and work full-time, they sold their house just when they had given up on the idea and had to be out of it by December 15. In an eye-opening session with my doctor, I realized I needed to be in Ohio to help my parents and grandpa through this difficult time. It was sad, but actually not a hard decision to make. I knew what I had to do--and what I wanted to do, for that matter. I put in my two weeks notice and planned to be home the weekend my grandpa would be finishing his first round of chemo.
I miss Maryland and all the people I love there very much. But, I am not too sad because I know I will be back soon. It is the place I know I want to and will be. However, my family, my mom and dad and grandpa, they are home. No matter where they are, my parents are my guiding direction--my north.
So, here I am. I wake-up every morning and spend a couple hours with my grandpa and it is the best part of my day. I help with breakfast and medication and then we just enjoy each other's company. I usually spend time with him again in the evenings and take him to most of his appointments. The past month has been crazier than I could have imagined with getting my parents moved and being with my grandpa, but we all made it through together. Now, the holidays are here, my sister is here, and soon my Maryland family will be here! I can't wait. Grandpa still has four more rounds of chemo, which are really tough on him, but I will be here for every one of them and that we will get through it. I know that I will never regret my decision to come home, now or ever. I've decided to use this blog, at this time, to document my time with my grandpa and my family so I can look back on all the great moments.
Again, still lovin' livin', not in Maryland, but I will be back soon. Until then, lovin' Ohio.
